Dax - Depression

i can't find myself

i get lost inside my brain

i think i might need help, mm

but i pushed all of 'em away

i took the cards they dealt

and there's nothin' i can change

so, when i'm by myself

i just pray for brighter days

sometimes i sit, and i reminisce 'bout the good times

wish i could get those back

i keep on runnin' these races that go in my mind

and they go on these tracks

i'm not ready to erase all my memories

hmm, i fight depression and i let it get the best of me

now there's nowhere to run, nowhere to go

look around, there's liquor bottles all on the floor

fillin' up the space inside my heart and my home

drownin' out these thoughts until they leave me alone

i can't find myself

i get lost inside my brain

think i might need help

but i pushed all of 'em away

i took the cards they dealt

and there's nothin' i can change

so, when i'm by myself

i just pray for brighter days

these thoughts are drainin' all my energy

i try to tell 'em to god, they said, "i'm goin' insane"

and then they recommended therapy

and i go and talk to a man who's gettin' paid to explain

he started sayin' that the chemical imbalance is the reason that my brain

ain't connectin' to accomplishments associated with movin' on

all in life and passive things in life, my heart cannot contain

so that happiness won't sustain

and he read me my options

he said, "here goes a pill, only take two, eat a meal"

and they don't know how i feel

i can't find myself (i can't find myself)

i get lost inside my brain

think i might need help (think i might need help)

but i pushed all of 'em away

i took the cards they dealt (took the cards they dealt)

and there's nothin' i can change

so, when i'm by myself (when i'm by myself)

i just pray for brighter days

should i drown all these thoughts, or should i leave 'em to float?

i've got all of my flaws livin' inside of this boat

i've been anchored in pain, the weight is makin' me choke

it's gettin' harder to breathe, it's pullin' right at my throat

i've been hopin' for change, but don't know how to restart

they say you ain't a man when you're exposin' your heart

then they say you insane until it tears you apart

and then it cuts you so deep, and they can tell by the scars

we can only see change when we accept who we are

try to run from the shame, and you will never get far

don't you bottle the pain and live your life in the dark

you're meant to break from those chains and shine as bright as a star

don't you ever tell yourself that your depression

is the reason you won't make it or that happiness is not in your cards

with our god, you can beat all the odds

keep your faith, and you'll never be lost and say

i can't find myself

i get lost inside my brain

think i might need help (i think i might need help)

but i pushed all of 'em away (i pushed all of them away)

i took the cards they dealt

and there's nothin' i can change

so, when i'm by myself

i just pray for brighter days